The rain is sad, but not an ounce compared to the sorrow I feel right now

Ich was watching, not knowing what was happening

"I wish to take care of this.. I don't want you to be sick."

She made a 'sad' expres​sion(aw ) and shrugged. "...If I could, I would... Get un-sick..."

"But you can't, so let me help..please?"

*cough* *cough* She tried to smile. "It's probably just a cold, meow. I can pick up some cough syrop later."

He frowned, looking down. "My help is unneeded.."

"N-No, Gaara-kun, it's not *cough* that.. I just don't need you to go out of your way for me, meow." *cough* She started coughing repeatedly and when she pulled away her hand from her mouth, blood was running from it, down her wrist. She casually put her hand to her side and casually whipped it on the side of her skirt.

That was it. His face filled with anger and he grabbed her shoulders. "Neko!! Neko, what the hell?! Your lying to me!! That's blood, Neko!! BLOOD!!"

He dragged her to the couch, laying her down by force, and pinning her there, in a very strange position on top of her. "How could you?! Why would you lie to me??! Why?! Do you think that I would buy this?! Throw it off like it wasn't important?!"

His face turned pained. "How.. could you lie to me..? I thought.."

He was angry again, his teeth clenched. "Why would you do that to me?! Why?! Did you think your health didn't come first?! Well, it does!! It comes before everything!! I can't believe you would lie to me!! Why?!"

She flopped like a rag doll underneath him, emmiting the feeling of unnemotion yet inside she was burning. She stared directly at his chest, not dare looking at his eyes.

"Do you not understand that it really doesn't matter? I am not a person, an actual human being. I was not meant to feel emotion and think complex things. I was not meant to meet all of you, and for certain I was not meant to make you worry about me. I was never supposed to meet you, never supposed to make contact with anyone. But what made me stay was myself lying. I told myself that as long as I didn't make you, or anyone else's, life any harder then it would equal up to if I had never been created in the first place. So, my health is of no importance. If I get sick and leave, maybe even die, then you can return to your life before I was around."

She coughed slightly again, blood running down her lip. Then she sadly looked into his eyes, pain infused with every word. "You survived without me before, why can't you do it again?

"Do you know how unbelievably untrue that is? Oh, so wait, since were the same, I could say the same thing, right? I wasn't meant to be here, either. I wasn't meant to feel emotion.. feel anything. Bt you know what? Look, even love has come into my life!"

He shook his head furiously. "How can you say that? Well, if that's really what you think of yourself, then maybe I should go die too, then. Again. All over again. Because you know what? No. I wouldn't be able to survive without you. I would kill myself. All over again."

"I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT! I WAS NEVER TALKING ABOUT THAT!" Her eyes grew the deep yellow colour of pain as she pushed him off of her, got to her feet and spun around to stare right at him.

"I don't believe that Jinchuuriki are monsters! I don't even believe that Raku-sama, the one with three, is a monster! YOU KNOW WHY?!" She screamed at him, unable to control what was passing through her lips. Tears swelled up and quickly toppled over the sides of her cheeks, bt she didn't notice. She quieted down, shaking and clenching her fists tighter in pain.

"Because... Because you all are human... Just because you have something unpure in you does not mean that you yourself are unpure. Just because we have this burdan placed on us does not make us any different compared to the people around us. We are citezens of our own villages. And regular citezens sacrifice something everyday, while we, ourselves, sacrifice, for the good of the village, our lives." she closed her eyes. "Except... Except..."

When she opened them, her eyes had red rings cricling the pupil. "Except I was never supposed to be anything to anyone! I am just a cat, a being with no perception of what friendship, or love, or pain emotionally is. I was supposed to die four years ago, as most of my kind would at that age. But I didn't! I AM ALIVE, AND CAUSING PAIN WHEN I SHOULD'VE NEVER EVEN CAME INTO THIS WORLD!"

She sank down to her knees and burried her face in her hands. "If anyone... Anyone should ever be called a monster in this world... That being would be me.. Someone who does not just carry the demon, but who is one herself... An artificial creation... A computer... Something that should of never been..."

"How.. can you even say that?" He asked, standing there completely still, his face now expressionless. "Do you even understand what's coming out of your mouth? Do you really know what your talking about?"

He turned his head and made some sort of 'psh' noise, though his expression was blank. "Heh.. your just a cat, uh? Just a cat.. well, do you know what I am? I'm not a cat, not a dog, I don't even know if I'm a raccoon or not. I'm a thing. A result from an angry monk who was shoved into a tea pot to rott, creating some demon thing that was made to terrorize people. I was made for killing."

He looked at her again. "Did you know that? I was meant to kill you. You too, no bluff. Your not from my village. If I didn't have any control over myself, you'd be dead right now. Do you see?

"You didn't even know about your demon. At least until I helped you see. And, I'm not regretful. You should know what's inside you. And you know what? Just like you said before, I am not a monster, because I am not Shukaku. Shukaku is the monster. I am the human being. You want to know what your doing now? Your being hypocritical.

That makes me believe that every single thing you told me was a lie. If I'm not a monster, and I have the same thing you have, then what are you saying? Your a monster, and I'm not? Of course. I have killed many, many people. Murder is a crime, Neko. I am the monster, here. You are not the monster, your demon is. So don't you dare come to me and say that shit, because it's not true. Stop lying to yourself, because it's not only yourself you are lying to."

With that, he turned around, his back towards her. "If you really want to believe what your saying is true, then.. then I wont believe anything anymore. I wont believe you, myself, Kani, anyone. Because.. you told me I wasn't what your saying you are now. What say you, Neko?"

She tilted her head upwards, her hands covering everything but her eyes. "You don't understand what I'm trying to tell you... You don't get it.. We are the same in the fact that we are Jinchuuriki, but I felt misplaced before I knew that." She stood up, her tears gone. "And I am not a person who feels sorry for themselves because they have a problem that not everyone has."

She shook her head. "People brought you into a life of pain and loneliness.... You killed, because you wanted to feel... Feel something.. That still doesn't make it your fault. But now, for the twentieth time, I've been trying to tell you, I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT!" Her voice grew angry but her face was in deep pain.

"Every person alive in this world is the same to me! They are living, breathing, PEOPLE!" Her pupil stared to shake, but she was still not angry. "You are a person because you were born one, just because someone added something when making you does not make you any less human, in fact..." She bit her lip as tears swelled up, but soon dried. "In fact, it makes you more human for being able to feel such empathy and emotion for others.."

She closed her eyes, not shouting anymore. She didn't want to fight, or to yell. She wanted to stop causing pain and just leave. But she knew, somewhere in the place she called a body, that leaving was not an option. It would just cause more pain. As much as she'd like to run away and leave them all, slowly forgetting about her and continuing on with there lives, she knew it wasn't possible. They would try to find her. Try to bring her back. And if they couldn't, they would be in pain forever. She caused this. She caused the relationships to form and the friendship to grow, making their bonds tighter. She caused it. It was her fault.

Suddenly, Neko grabbed her skull and hunched over, coughing as blood splattered on to the floor. Then she shot back up and screamed at him. "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!! I WAS NOT MEANT TO BE HERE! YOU WERE BORN TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD AND FACE THE CHALLENGES THAT CAME! I WAS BORN TO DESTROY AND CAUSE DISTRUCTION, THEN DIE! I WAS NEVER, EVER SUPPOSED TO MEET YOU, OR ANYONE ELSE! I WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO CREATE BONDS, WHICH I THEN, SHATTERED BECAUSE OF MY WRONG DOINGS! WHY-" She coughed and hunched over, then emmidiatly spoke softer.

"Why can't you see that I' don't belong...?"

"Because you do belong. You belong here, with me.." He sighed. "And I am unable to see why you can't see that... if what you say about me is what your thinking, truthfully.

"Everyone was meant to do something in this life, may it be anything simple, or drastically complicated. Your not what you say you are. Maybe, you were born unhuman, and maybe you were meant to kill and destroy. But you know what? Tell me when that ever happened.

I don't ever remember you killing someone, or destroying anything. I could never imagine you doing anything in the like. And what your saying, is that this was never supposed to happen? We shouldn't be standing here, communicating like humans do?

You know, humans need a lot of things. Food, water, sufficient rest. So, since I am unable to sleep, how human does that make me?"

Then he gave a small, strange laugh. "I used to think like your thinking now. No, I never thought 'Jinchuriki' or whatever, I just thought that I didn't belong. I had help from others telling me I didn't, either. But look, the most rediculas thing happened. I became in charge of the village that hated me."

He turned his head and looked at her. "Even monsters do something good in their life. You have, so why do you think of yourself like that..?"

"In the end... In the end, It does make some sense.." She stared blankly at the wall behind Gaara but then shifted her gaze right o him. "But what I really want to say is that even if I'm not a monster, even if I am some how, in some crazy sense, human..."

Her face tensed in pain and she coughed again. "I still don't belong here. I'm the puzzle piece to the wrong puzzle. I don't fit. And even if the other pieces except me, adding to their misery and woe would be selfish. I can live here, with you, as long as I don't add any other emotion that wouldn't of been here without me."

He stared at her, pain shooting across his face for a split second, until he forced it blank again and turned around, his back facing her once again.

"I understand.."

He closed his eyes, inhaling deeply, then exhaling through clenched teeth. He lowered his face and raised his hand to it, keeping it there.

"You don't need to do anything you don't want to, Neko. If you think it's best that you leave, I can't tell you no. Even if it causes me to lose the best thing that's ever happened to me."

He clenched his teeth, curling his hand on his face. He couldn't imagine not having her there, though, he wouldn't stop her. It would be wrong to do so, and if she really believed she was the wrong piece in a puzzle, then it was her choice if she left or not. He couldn't take her freedom away from her. So, he waited for her to speak before he did anything else.

She sighed. "You do not seem to understand." She coughed. "I am not able to leave because I am such an awful person who is only thinking of the pain she'd be through from leaving. Staying causes pain, causes hurt. But leaving..."

She almost smiled. Almost, before coughing again. "I am such a sick, twisted person that I continue to cause pain because I cannot handle leaving. So, when you ask me how I am, replying 'fine' is the only way I can make sure I do not add another burden to your thoughts."

She took a step forward, grabbing Gaars's hand from behind and just holding it. "I don't want to leave, but that doesn't mean I should stay.. I don't want to.. Cause pain..."

"Don't... think about pain.. if.. it causes me pain.. just don't give a damn." He said, keeping his eyes closed. "If you really want to leave, leave. Staying isn't causing any pain for me, not until you talk like this. Not until you think your some monster. Not until you say you should leave. Because when you say things like that, it hurts. And I know that your hurting too.. and maybe.."

He tensed. "Maybe if you leave it will be better for you. You wouldn't have to lie. You wouldn't have to worry about me. You would be free from this, and I am not stopping your freedom.."

"I can't not think about you and other's pain. Your pain is my pain. If I lived a perfectly normal life, skipping carefree always, I wouldn't be happy until you were skipping too." She shook her head. "I will not... No... I can not be happy until you are happy."

She let go of his hand, letting it drop. "You say if I left it would be better for me.. Where would I go? Back to Kumogakure? Back to my house? Back to my locked room to stay in for the rest of my life? That doesn't make sense.. I would waste away on a blanket and a pillow like before, only seeing the light of white walls reflecting onto me."

She clenched her teeth. "I don't want to go back there! I know it's my place, where I belong, but I don't want to go back!!" Her eyelids shot open, red engulfing the yellow. Her teeth grew longer and clenched together more ferociously then before while her hands started twitching and each nail grew 12 inches longer. "I WILL NEVER GO BACK!" She screamed in a voice that was not her's and lunged at Gaara, aiming to strike.

He knew what was happening, knew the sounds, knew that this would happen when he last looked at her, seeing the red in her eyes. Now, he merely stood still, waiting for her claws to have their impact,, making sure he wouldn't let the sand protect him, by force if he had to. Though, there wasn't enough sand around him, and he never brought his gourd. So, he was a bit screwed.

'Come on, Neko, kill me.. it's what you most desire, is it not?'

Her middle finger and index finger dug into his back, drawing bits of blood. Yet she stayed frozen in place, looking like a painted picture drawn in space itself. One foot was off the ground, from her lounging at him, but it was frozen too.

The only thing that was in motion was her eyes. The pupil was dashing back and forward, with not way to follow, while her eyes were turning from red, to orange, flashing yellow ever so often. Her mouth was twitching, her teeth clenched, frozen in place.

He felt the jolt of pain through his torso, and slowly looked down, lifting his hand to touch the sharp talons that poked through his chest. The blood had been splattered on his face, and on the floor in front of him. It dripped from the talons, and was quickly staining his white clothing.

"Ugh.." He winced, the pain burning through him. It was difficult to breath, blood spewing from his mouth. She most likely fractured one of his lungs, which meant he would be faced with internal bleeding.

Slowly, he moved his head to the side, twitching ever so lightly, and looked at Neko. Staring at her frozen features, he wondered..

"Wh-wh-wha..t... a..re.. you.. wa..it..ing.. f-fo..r..." It was difficult to speak, coughing or gasping now and then. It was sure, that, one more talon, and she'd hit something vital. Why did she stall when she's come so far?

Random noises were running threw her lips as she stayed frozen in place. Suddenly, the hand that was not lodged in Gaara's back, grabbed the one that was by the elbow. Both arms were shaking as she forcably pulled her arm out of Gaara. She took several steps back, still holding her arm, then the one that she was holding grabbed her face. "AAARRGG!!

She was screaming at herself as the nails on the hand that was holding her face dug into her skull. She fell to her knees, one arm looking like it was trying to pull the other one off with no success. Her eyes went black for a moment as she looked up at Gaara.

"Gaa...Ra.. K-Kun.. I'm sor-" Then her eyes went orange and she cried out in pain as the nails dug sharper into her skull. Her other arm gripped the other well, and teared it off, only to be thwarted as the nails stabbed into her stomach.

He turned his body, clutching onto his wound, and dropped to his knee's by Neko, using his free hand to grab the arm that was stabbing her talons into her stomach, trying to help her with no success.

"N-Neko!!" He coughed, raising his bloody hand that had been clutching his wound to her face, his strained expression having a mix of fear in them. Not for him, but for her.

"N-Ne..ko.. stop!! Rig..ht now! Ga-gain.. c-control!!"

Neko screamed right in his face. Blood ran down her mouth as she looked down at her arm stabbing into her stomach. Her eyes were swerving about, confused but then turned a bright yellow, red rings circling the pupil. Her arm ripped out of her stomach and Neko looked up again smiling insanely.

She liked some of the blood off her index finger, staring at him. "Damn it... Don't forget..." Immediately, Neko's eyes went yellow and then back to their original colour. Her fingernails and teeth started shrinking and she fell back.