Wandering...

"i do understand i just cant comprehend the whole of the emotions the only one i feel that way is for my brother and of course my demons but i dont really get it i need to protect those in my village bt i dont even fully nderstand it all"

"I'm sure it will come to you through time." He replied. "I used to believe that the deaths of others would make me stronger.. I didn't care for anything. I would kill someone if they got in my way, even if they would apologize. They hated me, all of them. Now, things are different."

He gave a low sigh, closing his eyes. "Your brother, the Shinikage, tell me.. do you know how much he feels for the Hokage?"

"isnt that a way to make your existince known? and i think he feels deeply for her but i think that is a mistake he made"

"I used to believe it was.. back then, I didn't care. Though, I've made my existence known, and people don't look at me as a killer, but now they look up to me as their leader and protector. I am respected as the Kazekage, not feared as someone who might kill you."

Opening his eyes again, he turned his head and faced Raku. "Why do you believe it as a mistake?"

"he has given his enemies many ways to hurt him being physical and mentally and from what ive seen love is painful he will be making many sacrifices and is it too much to ask for to be feared and respected because every now and then i let my big bad wolf take control for a meal"

"I don't understand.. love seems like a complicated thing. It makes you strong, it makes you weak.. I think this is why I never bothered with it." He shook his head again. "I try not to let Shukaku take control.."

"haha your ashamed of him. well i dont blame you really"

"I never said I was ashamed of him.. are you ashamed of yours?"

"i embrace them i am not ashamed and i dont understsand love at all it just seems like a waste of time to me"

"Hm.." He stared blankly at Raku. "It could be a waste of time, then again, it might not be. This is something that could be discussed with someone who understands love.."

(hey gaara its kinda scary isnt like gaara looking into the past lol)
"maybe so and by a big meal i mean a bit of.....fun"

((ooc: That was confusing O_o *is lost* What about Gaara's past? XD))

"You allow these 'big meal's?"

(ok rakus like gaara was before naruto kicked his ass XD)
"well...not all the time but i do let them happen"

((ooc: Oooh I see... hey! XD))

"Your the Mizukage.. and you allow it to happen?"

"theyre all raiders or assassins they all diserve to die and i find it to be entertaining

"What was your reason for becoming the Mizukage?"

"to protect and find a better reason to live"

"How do you protect when you allow your demon to kill those in your village?"

"not my village"

He gave a low sigh, looking away and going silent.

"i try my best...they just corrupt my judgement"

He looked up to the sky. "What do you plan on doing now?"

"im not entirely sure but im going to learn to have them under my control"
*he looked at the people passing by*

"I see.." He lowered his eyes and watched the people passing by as well.

"its kinda hard to control one of them"