Wandering Around

He turned his head again, staring off somwehere. "Well, it isn't working."

Kani let her arms fall to her sides and she took a step backwards. She stared at the floor, her hair falling in her face.

"I'm sorry..."

She turned and crossed her arms over her chest.

"I'm just so happy to see you...and I can't stand that you're not happy..."

"I don't think I ever was." He shook his head slightly. "Don't be sorry."

Kani bit her lip.

"You were happy when we were happy...I remember that. You were happy Gaara...you really were. You were happy Gaara...for many reasons..."

"Then how can I not believe you? If I truely was that happy, I would remember. But I don't."

Kani sighed sadly.

"I don't know...maybe some of your memories got wipped...I'm not sure. But I am sure that you were happy once!"

"I'm sorry, but I doubt that.."

Kani groaned and spun around.

"Gaara! Why can't you!? Why can't you believe that you were ever happy!?"

Tears pricked her eyes.

"Is it so hard to believe!?"

"Yes, it is." He closed his eyes, knwing she was right, knowing he had actually been happy at some point. But he wasn't about to admit it, if this was going to work, he needed to resist.

"It's extreamly hard to believe. Would you know?"

Kani stared at him, open mouthed. Her legs buckled and her fell onto her knees. Her hands tightened around her knees as she clentched her teeth together. Tears slowly started to fall as she kept her eyes shut.

Why can't he believe!? Why can't he remember!? Hitori...Neko...Swiss...Temari and Kankuro...they all made him happy and he can't remember!?

He opened his eyes and turned his head, staring down at her. He expected as much, though, it didn't help the resisting. "Don't cry.."

Kani shook her head and got up, hand still clentched. She opened her eyes but kept them on the floor.

"I'll jut go."

She walked past him towards the door.

How could he stand this? For the first time, he wondered if his method was even worth it. Maybe it would fail as badly as his plan to rid the world of Shukaku. At that thought, his eyes widened a bit as they followed Kani.

"Wait.."

Kani stopped just as she was about to leave the room.

"What?"

She kept completely still with her one hand still balled into a fist. The other gripped the doorframe.

"I.. I know what I felt before.. I know that I was...happy.. I didn't mean that.. I don't know... My apologies, Kani.."

Kani stared at the floor, only half listening.

"Why..."

She shook her head and sighed.

"Gaara...what the hell? If you remembered..."

She leaned on the doorframe, not turning to look at him.

"I'm not sure.." He shook his head, lying. "I'm not thinking straight.."

Kani emmited a hard laugh.

"Right...right...that's completely understandable."

She shook her head and crossed her arms.

"I hate being lied to Gaara."

He frowned. "I'm sorry.."

Kani stared at the ceiling, her arms still crossed.

"Gaara...stop saying you're sorry ok? That's the only response anyone has ever given me and I'm sick and tired of it. I want to be given a real answer."

"I am unable to supply you with a real answer."

Kani nodded.

"Uh huh...well, unless you have anything else to say I'm going to go."

He stared at the back of her head, then looked to the floor and closed his eyes, frowning.

"It was lovely seeing you again."

Kani sighed and looked down at the floor.

"Like you have no idea..."

His hands curled into fists, and he opened his eyes.

"Of course."